Background Music: Atonement from the Atonement Soundtrack
I am sitting here, in my room, trying to plough through my work and battling thousands of feelings leaking through the cracks in my sanity. That was when this song began playing and suddenly, the bottled emotions burst open and now I find myself sorting out the glass pieces and its contents spat across this floor.
Memories enter in drops and leave me in an ocean to drown.
My heart ached, my tear glands awakened from their dry slumber. Suddenly all my pain and grief was focussed on the loss in my life. Death. Of my grandmother. Sometimes, you never realise how much a person co-existed with your life until they leave you. When their ghost wanders around amongst the loneliness. When silence becomes suffocating. When the pain throbs through your thoughts. It's knowing that someone's missing that causes time to constrict. The past opens up, like a black hole, drawing me inwards. The laughs, now echoes. The hugs, now a vacuum, the smiles, now frozen in photographs.
I miss you. More than words can ever express.
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